What Do You Want Before You Die?

There is no one in this world knows when she or he will die. I, definitely, don't know when I will die. One day I'll die, that's for sure. 

I forgot since when exactly I have interest on death. I mean, usually when death suddenly came acrossed my mind, I used to ignore it. I tried not to make a big deal out of it. But, now, I often think about death. Thoughts like "All people I love will leave me eventually by nature." or "Some day I'll die. Will it hurt? Will there be an afterlife? I'm afraid of death.". Yes, thoughts like that. I also often imagine my own death. I visualize myself when my future self's time is up. Weird, I know.

But, if you ask me what I want before I die, then my answer will be... I haven't thought about it. It's weirder. I think about death, but I don't think what I want before I die?

This video below makes me think that I have to find what I want before I die. You know, so I don't have to regret anything when I die. Be it a goal, a life purpose, a wish, anything. Problem is when you have a life that is so plain and boring at the moment, you'll find yourself that you don't have an ambition. You don't know what you want before you die. You clearly have no idea what you do want. And that's what I'm feeling right now. I don't know what I want before I die.

Click play to watch the video!
For the full transcript, you can go here

As usual, I'll quote something from the speakers whom I agree what they say and leave impression on me.

First is this...

In 2009, I lost someone I loved very much. Her name was Joan, and she was a mother to me, and her death was sudden and unexpected. And I thought about death a lot, and this made me feel deep gratitude for the time I've had, and brought clarity to the things that are meaningful to my life now. But I struggle to maintain this perspective in my daily life. I feel like it's easy to get caught up in the day-to-day, and forget what really matters to you.

And second one is this...

Two most of valuable things we have are time and our relationships with other people. In our age of increasing distractions, it's more than ever to find ways to maintain perspective and remember that life is brief and tender. Death is something we're often discouraged to talk about or even think about, but I've realized that preparing for death is one of the most empowering thing you can do. Thinking about death clarifies your life.

Thinking about death clarifies your life. I keep thinking what Ms. Chang means by this. As I'm thinking, little by little I start to understand. I have to think and dig deeper what life means to me. How I perceive life? How I see it? How I taste it? Do I think life is meaningful? If I can value life, then I will respect death. Therefore, I do not need to fear death. In fact, I'll embrace it like an old friend.

What will you do when your old friend is going to visit you? You must be preparing every thing to welcome your friend. You want to please him/her. You want to give him/her an impression that you've been waiting for his/her visit and you've missed him/her. And that what we also should apply in regarding to death. We have to prepare ourselves before we die. Make our lives colorful and meaningful. Go figure what we really want in life and pursue it. Have fun with life. Be somebody. Be useful to other people and communities. So, when our old friend will come, we don't have anything to regret in life.

For that, start from now on, I will start to find what I really want before I die.


  1. what you really want before you die is mean what is your purpose of life.... nice artikel...

  2. what a nice metaphor Kimi.. 'treat death like an old friend. so when it came, prepare every thing you have to welcome it'. well.. that's true..!

    hope you'll find your passion in life

  3. @ Applausr
    Thank you, Mas... :)

  4. @ Puti
    Thanks, Puti. I hope that, too. I hope one day I'll find my passion. Whatever that is. :)

  5. so inspiring. thanks for sharing kimi :) i've been reading your post since a long time, keep on sharing good stuffs :

  6. @ James Hezekiah
    Hello, James. Thank you for your such sweet comment. I'm really honored. And thank you so much for reading my blog since a long time (since when exactly if I may ask?). :)


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