Saturday, March 24, 2018

# curhat # in english

Thank You, Papa.

Hi, Papa. How are you? I've been missing you so much lately. Got some pretty shocking news four or five months ago. I cried for days when first I heard about it. To many whys, whats, whens, wheres, and hows. Made a promise to myself that I won't think about it, but I failed. It shook me to my core. But, I've made peace with the past.

We never talked about it. You didn't give me a chance to sit down with you and let me say what I needed to say. So, I'm saying this right now through this letter. I know you're not going to read this, but I hope this is gonna console me. I believe God has told you about this.

I just wanna say thank you. A big, big thank you from the deepest of my heart. Thank you for loving me and raising me. Thank you for taking a really good care of me. I'm not gonna be a person who I am now if it wasn't because of you.

And I'm so, so sorry that I haven't given you more love that you deserve. I should have done more for you. I should have taken much better care of you until your last breath. I regret it to this day. I'm blaming myself for that.

I'm sorry for all our fights and rebellious acts I made back when I was a teenager. I'm sorry if I caused you so much worries and troubles. I'm sorry if I ever hurt your feelings, ego, and pride. I wish you were still with us.

I couldn't ask for a better father because you were indeed the best father I could ever have. I wish you were proud of me. I promise you that I'm never gonna stop trying to make you proud.

So, now I ask for your blessings for all steps that I'm gonna take in the future. I wish you still pray for me to God for Him to guide me in every way so I'm not gonna lose tracks.

Please send my warm regards to Minak Donny and Kanjeng Edy. Al fatihah to all of you.

Last but not least, I love you, Papa. Now and always. Across space and time.



6 comments:

  1. My deepest condolences.
    Remember, death left a heartache no one can heal. Love left a memory no one can steal.

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  2. Sebagai seseorang yang jarang "klop" dengan ayah sendiri, tulisan ini membuat saya merenung bagaimana jadinya jika suatu hari nanti...

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    1. Nikmati setiap ada momen dengan beliau, Zi. Salam hormat untuk ayahmu ya.

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  3. walaupun masih agak kurang pande bahsa inggris, sedikit-sedikit ngertilah keknya aku. Hahaha... everybody love Papa, wish you all the best ya teman..

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