Earworm #2

Okay. This post is gonna be really emotional for me.

This morning I checked my phone when I read the news that the father of Evie Clair, one of America's Got Talent 2017 contestant, dies after tragic cancer battle. I said, "Evie who?" Since I'm not religiously following AGT (the only contestant I know is Angelica Hale) so I don't know which one contestant with the name Evie Clair. But, the news caught my attention because I have personal story related to cancer.

So, I opened YouTube to check Evie's performances. Oh, boy, that was a really big mistake.





When Simon Cowell asked Evie why she decided to enter AGT this year, she started to sob. Then she answered, "About a year ago my dad was diagnosed with stage 4 lung cancer. They gave him 5% chance to live and he still continue working and supporting our family. And so tonight I sing for him."

And this is the most heartbreaking part, I think. When Simon asked Evie what song she's gonna sing and Evie said she's gonna sing Arms by Christina Perri. And Simon asked again why she would choose that song, well the reason was very personal. She answered:

"When my dad having rough days then I go to his room and I sang him this song to help him to feel better. And just to feel him comfort. And strength to continue fighting."

Then she started to sing.

I never thought that you would be the one to hold my heart
But you came around and you knocked me off the ground from the start
You put your arms around me
And I believe that it's easier for you to let me go
You put your arms around me and I'm home

My heart broke when I listened to her voice. Her voice touched me. The song moved me to tears. I know this is really bias because I had the same story like Evie's. And you know what, I watched it for the second, the third, the fourth time, she still made me cry. I cried so hard and miserably.

How many times will you let me change my mind and turn around?
I can't decide if I'll let you save my life or if I'll drown
I hope that you see right through my walls
I hope that you catch me 'cause I'm already falling
I'll never let our love get so close
You put your arms around me and I'm home

I was crying and getting out of control every time the camera shot Evie's dad. More tears were running down on my face. He made me remember my father. I miss him terribly by now.

Out of curiosity I watched her other performances.




And, damn. Another performance that brought me to tears.

I try to say goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near
Goodbye and I choke
I try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near

And, here is another one.

I’ll wear your winter coat, the one you love to wear
So I keep feeling close to what’s beyond compare
The moments waking up, you catch me in your eyes
That beauty on my pillow that holds me in the night

After my father died for few weeks I wore his T-shirts and jackets. I wanted to feel he close next to me, you know. I kept really safe all things that he bought me: a pair of shoes for party, sandals, a woman handbag, dresses, a Manchester United jacket, a purse, a watch, glasses, everything. I went nuts if they're missing. I cursed myself if I was being sloppy and put them carelessly scattered around my house. Because for being sloppy I often lose things.

Okay, now we go to serious part. Let's talk about Evie's voice.

I love her voice. Her voice reminds of Jasmine Thompson's voice. I once talked about Jasmine here. I like this kind of voice. What do you call it? Tone? Voice color? Well, pardon me for my ignorance. But, I hope you do get what I mean.

So, it's official now these three songs will be my earworm for the next few days. These songs will never be the same again. Because since now every time I hear these songs, they will remind me of my father.